I can’t imagine what its like to be a drug addict..to want a high so badly you will go through thousands of dollars just to get a high..I don’t like to take over the counter drugs unless necessary…let alone the hard stuff..when I had my knee operation..I didn’t like taking the pain medicine..because of the way it makes me feel..I would rather have the pain…how can you like how that makes you feel? And not knowing if the next high is going to kill you… or not..a chance I am not willing to take…why take something that isn’t going to let you remember what the heck you did the night before? I just can’t wrap my head around this…
I can’t imagine what it’s like to NEED a drink everyday… I have beer and wine in my frig that had been there over a year now..I know for some, that it would of been gone the next day….everyday they stop and grab that 12 pack on the way home…and finish it off..before bedtime…Don’t get me wrong.. I enjoy a nice glass of wine..but the rest of the bottle goes to waste…I may have a white Russian if I am out for dinner..but one is enough.. I’ve never been drunk…NEVER… Two glasses of wine and I know I don’t like how it make me feel.. I like having complete control…I don’t like how alcohol makes me feel.. I can’t understand why people can’t see that they can’t drive after have too much? If you fumble while getting the keys in the ignition.. don’t drive.. it’s a no brainer.. how do you like laying by the toilet and puking your guts out? Yet, You still enjoy doing it all over again..tomorrow.. Not me…lives and familes are ruined by alcohol…why do it?
I enjoy sex.. but I can’t imagine being addicted to it and giving up my body to anyone that I meet….or being addicted to looking at it…people meet in the back alley and arrange sex…with a stranger and then go home to their partner..and do it again.. I’d be afraid some creep would kill me.. or that I would end up with a STD..or even AIDS..isn’t this degrading to you? How can you be addicted to this? How does it even begin?
And don’t get me started on cigarettes…I’ve kissed a man who smoked and it tasted awful! I have lived with a smoker and seen his yellow teeth and smelled the smoke on his clothing.. I hated it.. how can you want to stick a cig in your mouth and do all that harm to your lungs! We have all seen the pictures of the smokers lungs…black with tar like substance …and the cancer.. they spend millions of dollars on campaigns to keep young kids to stop..and yet.. its a multi dollar business… no matter what anyone says.. it’s not cool to smoke..not to mention the cost of a carton of those things! How do you like spending all of your hard earned money like that??? Up in smoke!
No I can’t understand how a person gets addicted to smoking.. drinking.. drugs..and sex…..those things don’t interest me…however….
I do under stand being addicted to food.. I understand how it make me feel better after a long day at work.. I understand that no matter how bad my day goes..that I can turn to the freezer and reach for the half gallon of ice cream… and eat myself happy…
I get great pleasure out of eating.. it comforts my soul.. it can make a bad day better.. a fight..tolerable..it can heal my broken heart.. and make me feel better inside..I use food like a druggie uses a needle.. it make me feel better.. and it’s not illegal.. No one cares if I stuff myself and weigh 300 pounds.. no one says a word…
In fact many family and friends of mine are are enablers … my hook up..my pimp…my dealer…see they make things to eat that I like and they even encourage me to eat me.. oh I am not blaming them.. I am just telling you they are enablers..and they don’t even know it..
If I was a alcoholic..would you ask me over to your house and offer me a drink? Or if I was a addicted to drugs..would you ask me over and have some on a silver platter for me?
If you saw me destroying myself with alcohol and drugs.. you would intervene? Why of course you would..
then why don’t you do that for me..? The food addict? Why not encourage me to seek help for my addiction???
Why not talk to me as my weight rises..and not ignore it?
Do you think I enjoy being fat? DO you think I just eat to much so I am getting fat? Do you even care?
It’s a disease that is not spoken about..after all you don’t want to hurt my feelings, right?
I have often said that I wish I wouldn’t have taken up the food addiction vise.. why? Cause I can get no help..if I was addicted to just about anything else..my insurance would pay for me to get help.. and certainly my family would seek that help for me.. out of sight out of mind..with alcohol..drugs.and tabacco…
but not with food addiction.. I still have to eat.. and to someone that LOVES food and is addicted to it.. there is no half ass way to do it.. all of nothing..yes , I eat all…everything.. and then afterwards I feel guilt..shame.. and despair.. which in turns makes me want to eat more to make me feel better..its a vicious circle..one that is difficult to break..but I am trying..
I started attending OA, Overeaters Anonymous …I attend the phone meetings.. it helps me be more aware..of what I am eating.. and allows me to be accountable..this helps me..my family still doesn’t get it.. nor my friends.. and I understand that. it’s really ok..I need to get through this..breakthrough my addiction myself..and with GOD.. at my side..
I hope that one day people who have a food addiction will have a place to get help..a outreach program..even a in house program to learn how to eat again.. I am going to beat this food addiction.. even if I feel that it is the hardest addiction on earth to kick.. after all I can drive down one block and find a fast food joint..just waiting to help me get my food fix! Hell they even have Dollar menu …that I can always afford something to fill my need…I get to walk the isle at Walmart and find just about any food that I want to get my fix..and if I am lucky..they are giving out samples… and being the kind person that I am.. sometimes they will give me seconds! Every second of every day food is on my mind.. every where I look..on TV on Bill boards..in Magazines.. I can find food porn.. and something new that could help me stay in this addiction!
But I want out… I have to get out.. I need to get out..I want out! So step by step. I will fight back.. I am stepping up and taking responsibility for my choices…I am eliminating many unhealthy things.. I started with Diet Coke.. I use to drink 6=8 a day.. I have been diet coke free for three weeks now.. and I feel better already.. my heartburn at night has stopped.. and I thirst for water now.. the colder the better! Now I have eliminated fast foods..I don’t go.. I can’t go.. I don’t have control..it’s not good for me.. so I am removing it from my life…period..next will be packaged food…all packaged foods..then white flour…baby steps..tomorrow is my first face to face OA meeting .. and I am scared shitless! But I am going… I am not sure what to expect…but I am looking forward to this very much.. the phone meetings are great..but this will be even better! wish me luck.. .and to those who are suffering with food addiction.. please reach out to someone.. a friend. pastor ..doctor…ask for help… and find OA ..go to the internet and find the phone numbers and conference call code to participate..it does help..